Cobwebbing Labyrinth

Void

2008-01-25T06:07:00.000-08:00

All these years i have been
On an endless quest,
Knocking on the forbidden doors
From east to west;
Wandering along the banks
Of the rivers of belief,
Viding the hallowed depths
With the eyes of truth,
To see beyond the invisible.

In this age of loneliness,
At the onset of second chapter
I pine to return to innocence;
Somewhere cries the silent warrior
Crucified with the cross of changes,
To play like the child in us.

Following the sun,
And guided by the almost full moon
I am this lost voyageur,
Compassed by the smell of desire;

Through out the odyssey of the mind
I rest under the shadows in silence,
As silence must be heard
Between the mind and heart.

Morphing through time,
Sailing through the prism of life,
In the shadow in the light,
With subdued dreams of the dolphin
In an ocean of peregrine.

Identity

2007-07-12T10:24:00.000-07:00

Since the unnoticed dawn
At the life's shore,
There has been relentless tides;
So many times it has taken me in stride,
In success,in failure,
In desperation galore.

After twenty years
The ocean has left me back;
In tears,in fears
Once where i was tracked;
Just where everyone dawned,
Now i am peregrine;
Just where every dream spawned,
Under the fleeting wings of time
In aspirations tangerine;

Who am i?
What am i here for?
Had not been the world better off,
Showing me the death's door?

I am ashamed to disclose my identity
Like many uncountable pebbles,
I am just another pebble;
Without an identity.

Yet Another Day

2007-07-11T12:17:00.000-07:00

Yet another day,

It was today;

The unwilling sun
Awoke from its ephemeral slumber;
Shone with tired sunshine,
Lamented,it could no longer
Hide behind the night's ravine.

Awoke the sleepy earth in her cozy nest,
Reluctant and mundane;
To lose in chaotic chirruping
To hate routine's behest.

Across the dizzy greens
The wind blew;
Above the placid sky
The birds flew.

Underneath the rivers flowed,
In its endless flow;
As eternally,
As the fires glow.

Sun came down,
Painting frustrations umpteen;
Climbed the squeamish stars
Hating the deathless routine.

Slept the tired earth,
A decade's sleep;
Soon to get lost in fray;
Tomorrow,
Is just another day.

Idle

2007-07-10T22:37:00.000-07:00

Every second seems like an hour,
As i sit idle;

Building hopes to despair,
Like drawing lines in water;
I feel restless.

Pledging to endeavour,
Like pouring ink on blotting paper;
I feel worthless.

The entire day
I sit idle,
Savoring the pipe-dreams;
And hope to rekindle,
The long lost fire within.

I sit idle;
Battling the mental scandal.

Beggar

2007-07-10T12:00:00.000-07:00

The last time i was in a train

My face shrunk seeing the dirt.
Desperate was i to escape the flith,
When came a soul,a saviour;

A soul whom we hate
As they lay their hands to beg,
A soul seeing whom we move aside
As they approach us for the slightest mercy,
A soul at whom we dont even look at
As they cry for a priceless penny.

Such is the soul,
Who stinks,
And on the spit he sits;
He does not mind cleaning the dirtiest hell
He does not mind even if you dont love him;
Its nothing but his little expectations,
That he reaps in his glowing eyes
And thrives in his whispering sighs.

I felt like hugging the little Jesus
I felt like crying seeing his laid out palm
Without a penny;
I gave him five rupees
Such a beggar was I.

Rain

2007-07-10T11:59:00.001-07:00

From the misty lands of golden moss

And the far away habitat of croaking frogs,
Came rolling in the ocean of sky
The clouds like floating wooden logs.

From the distant island of green ocean
Where the rain-soaked beaches bathe in sunshine,
And the bedraggled forests of raingod's haven
Where butterflies bask in the fragrance of vine;
Rain came sprinkling across the horizon,
Drenching the steel and mortar blocks,
And trickling down damsels' blonde locks.

From far across the mystic miles
Come fading the echoes of incessant rain.

Insomniac

2007-06-28T21:58:00.000-07:00

As the night creeps in,
Sleep escapes the eyes;
Come crawling the void,
As the wretched insomniac cries.

Eyes wide open,
And blood rolling down;
Twist and turn,
As insomniac eyes burn;
Potraits start whispering,
And frustrations lingering,
Around the insomniac
Insanity and delerium,
Rest in his ghostly bivouac.

As stars rise,
Every dream dreamt
Brings nightmare in disguise;
Every breath taken -
Brings him closer to demise;
With sleeplessness in the eyes
The wretched insomniac cries.

Ashamed

2007-06-22T12:55:00.000-07:00

Obsessed with guilt

Of heartless filth;
I put,
Worthless efforts to let
The world know,
Why i do not smile
Why i do not glow;
So many words to say,
Yet they get lost in fray;
And when emotional ink
Makes my heart sink,
I go numb,i go dumb;
So ashamed i am,
I get absorbed,i get blotted.

And as i sit down,
With a blank page,
Laid before me to frown
I am ashamed to face
The void in front of me,
Let go the words;
I am ashamed to see
The untold guilt on paper
As they fidget to flee.

Beautiful Nature

2007-06-21T09:02:00.000-07:00

Lying under the azure sky,
Under the chaotic vastness
Of seemingly an ocean,
I see the Clouds fly;
They emerge,they disperse
Like hiding the peak of a mountain.

Lying under the dark clouds,
And the storm raging,
Winds driving past the greens;
Across the horizon's margin
Comes the smell of the rain-lashed earth.

Lying under the star-lit sky
With the moon by my side,
Tranquil,serene and silent;
The distant lights i vide
Seem like angels lighting up
The earth in its dream.

Lost Childhood

2007-06-20T21:09:00.003-07:00

I kept walking
Hearing the lullaby,
And the enchained ghosts whisper
Deep into the graveyard
Of childhoods cadaver.

Innocence entomed,
Playfulness buried,
Smiles choked;
Lay coffins of hurried,
Deceased childhood.

Beneath the shattered earth
Cry the voices
Six feet under;
Frantic to escape
Tortured in plunder.

Friends turned strangers
And myself a cursed ghost;
I witness,as i sit
All alone in the crypt;
And the castles of childhood
Stand crippled.

Nocturnal

2007-06-19T12:23:00.000-07:00

In the opaque darkness

I see the lanterns
Of the nocturnal;

They come calling me
Every night;
Though i dont see
I shiver in fright;
From deep within the darkness
And in the hanging silence
I hear voices screaming bane
Horror and macabre,
I no longer remain sane;
Roll down frozen tears
In elephantine fears.

The bats and the owls cry
As i smell corpses;
And keep calling the souls
A nocturnal.

Dejavu

2007-06-07T22:29:00.000-07:00

Slumber;deep slumber

I slipped into;
Seeing that dove fly
High above the ageless sky;
I knew,
I had seen that dove
On the eternal clouds above;
And as the sun shone bright
On my fungus-ridden memories in delight;
I knew,
I had been there
Which are now memories bare.

I knew;
Sometime long ago,
I had heard the same wind whisper
I had relaxed under the sky sombre
And watched the clouds so amber;
When i knew,
I was about to wake up from slumber.

Heartless

2007-06-06T08:27:00.001-07:00

Amidst the desert

Of heartless fields,
Braved a rose plant
Unattended,withered and arid
Neglected like an infant;
Pined for love;pined for a smile
All that she reaps
On her parched lips.

I shredded the rose,
With a thorn;
I trampled the love
That has thrived for so long
Only in hopes to be born;
I would never let it bloom
I had sworn;

I dont understand
How it feels like being the world for someone
I dont understand
How it feels like loving someone
I dont understand
How it feels like feeling for someone
I dont understand
How it feels like hurting someone
I dont understand
I dont understand
How it feels like being loved by that someone!

Until my tears fall
On its grave.

Introspection

2007-06-05T07:36:00.000-07:00

Lived and applauded with laurels
Like fresh trendy apparels
Basked in glory,seemingly a story,
Of happy nights and days
Dawning at the zealous bays.

Life is slow,lost its flow;
No wind to blow;no reason to glow
Smoke to billow;to swallow
The extinguished verve;
To strain the nerve.

Gone are those days;
All in faded memories
Like flickering strays
Though not to get lost in fray;
But to recollect;
Retrospect and introspect
To achieve like yesterday!

Its introspection
In transmigration
To avoid the void;
In hope to be bouyed
In a life;destination devoid.

Stoned

2007-06-05T07:31:00.000-07:00

And as I totter the love-desert,

Spilled sands of love burn bright,
The sun of desire has smoldered me in fright,
I can only vide the tired horizon in my sight.

Where are the clouds of solace?
Where are the oasis of comfort?
Where are the shadows to embrace
For a soul,so lost,so reckless?

And I am a babe in the wood,
I should have learnt by now,
That there is no compass to track the past,
And fake guides of mirage would only make me brood!

I am a burnt out stone,
Braving the heat of the desert,
I have had enough to leave me in fibre and bone,
Now I dont know if I really care,
What once I pined for,now I want to revert.

Disturbed

2007-05-24T06:19:00.001-07:00

Torched by the sun
Whipped by the heatwaves
Bitten by the scorpion
Yet unfettered
Contemplating in oblivion;
The vultures fly down
To feed on the cadaver
Ruminating;as they savor
Enduring without endeavour;
Blinded by the sandstorm
Choked under the dunes
Withered throat,left scathed;
Smiling a deserted smile
And tears falling on parched lips
Dead and undisturbed;no more agile,
In a disturbed state of mind
And a thousand untracked reasons behind.

Tearful Today

2007-05-24T06:03:00.000-07:00

The last night I cried myself to sleep

I had a dream of my memories,tearful and hazy
I could sense the loss,all very intense and deep
Today my eyes still retain tears,heavy and dizzy.

There was a tiredness in the sky
And the sun hid behind the clouds
I could see the lazy birds fly
I could hear the winds sigh.

I hit the day off with a bruise
Unprepared to get assaulted any more
Everything went wrong
I was left marooned in the expectation shore
I was left frail,dazed and in gore.

The others kept enjoying
I watched them across the barbed wire
I wondered if it was worth sharing with anyone out there,
They seemed devoid of emotions,
And me burning with anguish and fire.

And so badly hurt at the days end
I stumbled across the lanes
Nothing seems perfect
As I keep gazing through the broken window panes.

Today is over
And I am heart-broken,left so frozen
I wonder if the sun comes out turning everything sobre
And drowns my despair,my fears
I can only hope,but I cant help shedding tears.

Let It Rain

2007-05-24T05:47:00.001-07:00

Everytime it pined to rain
To relieve the heart heaved with pain
The sun came up to heal the stain
To all its disdain;
Only to lament for the much-needed rain.

Everytime clouds form
They are swept away by the storm
But today no power could deform
The clouds;heavy,dark and uniform.

The sky burst aloud with thunders
And the clouds of pain tore asunder
The blissful rain came down
To calm the fire of million blunders.

Let it rain...
Let the clouds refrain
Untill the oceans overflow
And the nature smiles in afterglow.

Walking away from the ocean

2007-05-24T05:44:00.000-07:00

After a time so long,
In surprises oblong;
I am walking along,
The shores I used to throng,
Of the ocean I pined to belong.

The ocean of memories is calm
And the waves fragile;
As I turn back with a smile,
I realise living there was so much futile.

The waves used to crash
At the shores to take me away;
And I surrendered to the gash,
Until I was hit with a splash
To drift me away,keeping wounds at bay.

I walk and the waves recede under,
As I watch them with pride and splendour;
I know I won't leave sandmarks either,
Because the ocean will drown all the dither.

Changing self

2007-05-24T05:43:00.000-07:00

Void and pain
Making me insane;
When cries resound,
In memories abound,
No one hears,
The silent tears.

No one there , no one to care,
Because healing cant cure,
And it is to endure;
Everyone tried for sure
To comfort me and make me mature
But it was I who was demure.

Perhaps they still care,
But I am worthless to share;
They dont understand me though,
And put me aside so.
Perhaps they are no more the same,
Though I thought they would remain
I didnt care at first,
And thus came the pain,
I know I can no longer refrain.

And now they must be wondering
Why am I acting as I used to do before?
Why do I keep coming back for more?
Because I want to put an end to the furore.

So I decided to move on,
Forgot if I was ever forlorn;
Drifted from what is now past
I have changed at last.

Procrastinate

2007-05-24T05:37:00.000-07:00

And I promised to be wise
Much before the sunrise
To achieve something
Before my sad demise
Only to be unfolded in disguise
That i was once again unwise.

A thousand times did i think
A thousand times did i resolute
To shed off the dusts of laziness
To start off with hundred jobs
Only to lie everyone in the blogs!

An inexorable reluctancy
That slams on the brakes
Every time i rage with despondency
I hope to be a pro
To glide past this inconsistency.

By the time the midnight blues spawn
I have already rebelled.
By the time the stars yawn
I have already revelled.

So here glows once again
The "promising" eastward window
Though the warmth devoid of sensitivity
And the brightness too morose to shadow
The birds vanishing in the distant sky
And turn yellow the grasses
The spider cobwebbing infinity
And i sit and brood
What do they signify
Never watching the second that passes.

Is it all so meaningless
Or just the procrastinating me
Losing out on the innuendo??
So do the clouds fade
Desperate to hide the shameless facade.

Fahrenheit

2007-05-24T05:34:00.001-07:00

The feel-good thermometer
Was lying under the sky
Rusted by the rain
Battered by the cold
Ransacked by the storm
Had age-old mosses to hold;
Until one fine day
The fahrenheit swelled.

All of a sudden there is a celebration
A heavenly mirth back on the earth
Energy,pleasure and invigorated souls
Rejuvenated by the heat
Showered by the sunshine-bliss
Enough reasons to light up the forgotten smiles
Enough reasons to iron out the woebegone crease.

The urchin is back
To take the world on stride
Bereft of worries,tears and despair
Under the burning sky;to justify
That its time to heal,to feel good,to repair
Our lackluster souls
To rage under the newly charged sun
To exasperate in the fahrenheit;
Extradite;recalibrate the undone!

Contemplate

2007-05-24T05:25:00.001-07:00

The street lights slept
The far away trees faded in darkness
The lull above the horizon
And i was left
Behind the panes,bereft;
Bereft of my sense
Bereft of my soul
As i saw the apparition
Satan;ghoulish like a demon
Approaching;
And then i could hear a thousand cries
Resounding and fading into silence
And a thousand faces behind the panes
Frantic to escape their penance.

The night was dead
For souls to contemplate
In the graveyard of spirits
Amidst the spooky jumble
To tread deep into the jaded jungle.

Mental stagnation

2007-03-07T08:59:00.000-08:00

Its all but whims,whims of sheer adamancy,

Its all but dreams,dreams of illicit fantasy!
While everything is silent,i freak out in lunacy,
Lets conjure up the magical idiosyncrasy!

I am always at my capricious exclusive,
And a bastion weather is infectiously inductive,
But i still retain the previous stains,so very seductive,
That i know everything else other than reality is elusive.
I am wearing an afterlife glass,trying to vide beyond,
Beyond the obvious,beyond the spiel,as a vagabond,
I am incomplete,I m searching for complete raymond,
For the pains,for the restlessness,for something worth a diamond!
Every moment inflates into an hour,
Every change oh-so sweet turns sour,
Everything is so ephemeral as a flower,
Its not late when NOW becomes a souvenir.
A soul so unstable for evrything so unforgettable,
Goofing off in pipe dreams,so very unpredictable,
I wanna fly away,and eschew the self so insatiable,
If only i knew what I want could I land in a cradle.
The after-now blues nurture me,leave me in afterglow,
Lost and marooned,dazed and confused,execrating the daily flow!
And mental decadence starts preying when everything turns slow,
Anyone explain me the depth of everything so hollow!

What is it that leaves me in tears?
What is it that helps me fight against the fears?
What is it that i find so intricate,so mine?
Perhaps the feeling of my existence everywhere is divine.

...And so i keep gazing at the sun,
Any one there?save me from the burn!
I show you how reluctant i am,how muddled i am,
But do i deserve this sweet revenge in return?

A Star.. So Far..

2007-02-13T07:46:00.000-08:00

I kept watching the star,

I kept eyeing on you,
You are my star,my only shining star,
Shining over me,so bright,so far.

The storms raised the dust,
Kept you out of my sight,
Our golden moments faded away into rust,
I know you are there,far away,burning bright.

The daylight makes me forget if we were together ever,
The winds whisper to forget what cant be never ever,
But how do i escape the inevitable dark night?
When i know it well that you are still there,burning bright!

Why do the clouds of betrayal emerge,
Everytime I vide u so clearly?
Why does it rain despair leavign me in upsurge;
Everytime I see the blue sky hopefully?

I want you to shine on the rain,
I want you to come crashing down over me,
I want to know how could we move away so far and why,
I want to see if all these days I was living a lie!

Ethereal

2007-02-01T22:04:00.000-08:00

In an idyllic summer comes the storm,

In a chilling winter comes the heatwave,
Leaves me restless;remain only broken norms,
I know I can fight,I will be brave.

And one feel-good spring dawns,
I see the mist fading away,
The sun unveils the fog,the gloomy spawn,
But the mist comes back,leaving me in fray.

So comes the blithe autumn,
The freshness and the joy of the sky,
Reflects my moods in solemn,
But invincible weariness captures the butterfly.

It takes a piece of my heart,
It takes a piece of my mind,
I wonder how everytime it falls apart,
I wonder how it leaves me blind.

Let.It.Go.

2007-01-31T00:00:00.000-08:00

You got something,

You never knew
You put it aside,
A thing so rare,so few.

You realised it late,
And went for a search of it;
You were sent another by fate
And the candles of hope lit.

You vowed to learn from mistakes,
You dint know that more mistakes were to come,
You gave away what you had for the new gift to take,
You thought you were right,you were done.

You tried to hide the past
You tried to revel in the present,
But the storm has left you in the dust
You have nothing,you can cry,you can lament.

You let the present grow,
You thought to live,learn and have;
But all in a whimsical row,
You knew sometimes that the past will urge to glow.

Now that you have failed to make the present happen,
Now that you want a resurrection of the past,
Now that you have left everything barren,
But you shud not regret anything now at last,
You let the present live,You have failed,
But you never built the past,
Which still cries to thrive,leaving you weak and frail.

You can just hope like the present...
Just hold on and wait,
...LET;IT;GO...if that is all what is left!

Free The Spirit

2007-01-29T21:26:00.000-08:00

Standing in the shadows,kissed by the breeze;

Bewitched by the sky,I had myself seized.
Why does it remind me of the past?
Why does it remind me of the past?

How can there be such beningn beauty.....
Such beningn beauty in everything of the past?
That urges me to induce wanderlust,
Only if I could walk in the past!

Every clouds in the sky,
Every thoughts that i hide;
Every little thing that makes me crazy,
Leaves me in tears...I cry and cry......

So beautiful is this world!
I just dont want to grow;to fade away in the future,
I want to live and live to dream my past....
To vide my world in golden rust.

Lost in my island of dreams;
I am lost..no one hears my scream,
Why do I dream so high..anybody tell me why!
That I get crestfallen and sigh!

I wish I could be what I want to be,
I wish I could touch the sky,
I wish I could dive deep into the sea!

Every little thing I want to achieve!
Every little thing I take seriously!
Cant I relax and listen to what my heart hails?
Rather than turning frustratingly pale!

I keep brooding over little things,
Keep brooding over and over again!
I find myself suffocated ...and I am laid back
Laid back in my dreams...
I want to break free....
Set me in jamboree!

Digital Emotions

2007-01-25T22:52:00.000-08:00

Countless like the stars,

Hazy and mysterious like the clouds;
As ephemeral as the fireworks,
My emotions that grow and fade behind the shroud.

For a moment,vibrant like the summer sun;
The next moment,gloomy like the monsoon sky,
Wondering like raining tears among all the fun,
I recoil,I tear apart,I m off,I fly.

I smell the unavoidable lowness,I sigh,
Crucified in an inexorable predicament,
I escape to an world of dreams,and I m once again high,
Realising the inevitable futility,I cry ,I lament.

What if I were always happy and I knew what I want!
What if I were always free of worries and tension!
What if I were stable,I were complacent!
What if I were not left wondering in the aimless horizon!

Its me,its mood,its revelation,its sadness in utter fluctuation,
Help me survive the digital emotion!

Love,Sensuality,Devotion.

2007-01-22T22:27:00.000-08:00

It is coming back once again,

Its been long that we put stains;
It is coming back once again,
Lets give it a try,no expectations,no pain.

I never meant to disappoint you,
I never meant to be crestfallen;
I never knew our love was so true,
Without you,its so bleak,so barren.

You set me free,nevertheless I was trapped,
The wind is blowing round and round;
You flew away so far,along the paths untrammeled,
Left me behind in the memories abound.

The childhood summer days,
Blinking and glittering-leave me in fray;
I wish I could take you to the sun,
Warm up the cold beween us,leave it all done.

Laughing away the tears,
Glowing with hopeful eyes,
Crying away the fears ,
Grappling in love and ties.

All these to let you know,
We are not yet done,our love is not yet over;
We will be back and love will shower.

Let me put my arms around you!

Confessions of a Gemini

2007-01-18T12:09:00.000-08:00

Like a line drawn in water,

Floating in moods and temper;
Like mercury enclosed in palms,
Elusive and mutably amber.
Fresh and nascent like a caterpillar,
Restless and desperate to bloom in vigor;
The soul unplugged;the wings stretched,
The butterfly sparks off in chimeric colour.
Fatally attractive and loved by all and sundry,
Reciprocates feelings truly and beyond boundary;
Always honest and meaningful in his virtual world,
Only to get hurt and traumatised being a skulduggery.
Grows morose,grows euphoric,as the surroundings blend,
Affected by monotonicity;laments to unwind in new trend;
Preyed upon by inactivity;a jack of all trades-
Gamboling activities,giving up all before they end.
The messenger of the God,an impeccable communicator,
Needs to exhaust the realm of knowledge before the days flicker;
Perfect in his dealings,sales ice in antarctica-
Talking in and out of things accolades him as a prankster.
Lighting fast in everything,revelling on a thousand thoughts,
Fame,dreams and recognition all come unfought;
He, who is at his natural frequency never finds it hard,
To conquer the expedition,which for others is a dream to be sought.
What-you-see-is-what-you-get is the jingoism,
Kind,benevolent and generous,a preacher of altruism;
Nothing hurts like an espionage on their honesty-
But,alas!after all its about Geminism.

The Winter Moods

2007-01-17T11:57:00.000-08:00

The shimmering sunlight comes creaking the window,

Wimpy eyes complaining;the body twisted in the cold;
The lazy blankets roll off,unwillingness and hatred growing in folds!!

The desolate trees stand;the leaves braving the wind,
Everything numbed by the ruthless chill;
Praying for the sun to burn bright,
Getting drenched in the magical daylight!

Seconds fly away;the cold dews in the daily routine;
The soul rests in the winter chimera-fantasises on dejavu...
Fog unveils the gray sky;but nothing beats the cold;
The victimised emotions,the tamed moods grapple in its hold!

The afternoon has never been so quick;
And the sun has never crossed the vertical unnoticed,
The after-noon blues start haunting,
And the distant horizon starts fading;
The moody sun starts setting beyond the virtual clouds,
The brightness,the heat,the energy all lost in shroud!

The dark night-domineering and autocratic,lands finally;
Spreading tentacles of chill,mystery and silence;
The world seems obscure,dead and reluctant mercilessly,
I stay awake till late night,a night so long....
I let my emotions grow,intermingle and throng;
And enjoy the macabre silence before I fall asleep.